i woke up this morning with this horrible feeling of melancholy, just a hard knot in my chest that i've been trying to unravel all day without luck. it's been raining hard the past few days along with this bone-deep chill that seems to only be cured by a pair of warm arms. even so i kind of want to be alone right now and just wallow in my apartment. i've felt this before so i know the best thing to do is to go out and be productive, which i did - latte at starbucks then some groceries at centurymart. also took half an hour to study chinese and text some friends. i'm dragging my sorry corpse out tonight for work at 6:30, followed by supper and foot massage with a buddy of mine, so hopefully that helps a little.
i wish:
i was braver
i was stronger
i was a better person
i deserved anyone in my life
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edit: so i guess all it took to feel better was listening to t.i. and painting my toenails pink. who would have guessed!!
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